“Worrying doesn’t empty tomorrow of its sorrow; it empties today of its strength.” Spurgeon. Think about what you are thinking about. It’s good advice and became vital to me to take an inventory of what I was thinking about during the day. Here’s an example of a little task that you might find helpful
During my most difficult time, I would often find it difficult to sleep. Difficult to get to sleep and difficult to stay asleep. I would go over the day’s events in my head, and the next days too. Sometimes thinking up scenarios to situations that may or may not eventuate. The most awful nights were when I would wake with a panic attack.
Both my sisters have anaphylaxis to peanuts (the peanut allergy). Within minutes of eating a peanut, their throats swell up and they can’t breathe. If this happens, it is vital they get an injection of adrenaline. Therefore, they carry an epipen around with them. Before the days of the epipen, my sisters would carry around an injection that would require quite some attention to administer.
In 2011, I began a journey that I never wanted to take. I was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder. We’re not talking about worrying too much but a full-blown disorder where my body would be in a constant state of panic with various physical symptoms even when I wasn’t thinking about anything in particular.
Whilst preparing for this blog, my morning devotionals were in step with the message of “we worship Him for who He is, and despite what we’re going through, He is worthy of praise.” The devotional I am reading is called “The Way of Wisdom” by Timothy and Kathy Keller, and all references in this blog are taken from this devotional.
Halfway through preparing this message, it dawned on me how arrogant it is for me to think I could describe God. That I could capture his essence using words. The truth is, no one can claim they fully understand God, and at times that may feel a little frustrating.